sunshine_maiden[1 - Action]
I think... I made a mistake.
[The elusive redheaded Desu can be found on the deck of the Chalice, looking out onto the ocean, hair blowing in the wind and obscuring her eyes. In one hand she's holding the little black notepad she's carried for ages; in the other, her Soul Perfume. POTPOURRI is floating next to her, silent. The look on her face says that even if she has doubts, whatever she's up here for, she's going to do.]
I've been so focused on others, so caught up in what I thought my role was, what I made my role... I haven't taken time for myself. Everything I've done, I've done for someone else. And even if it made me feel like I was helping, it hurt me. I left home and became a pilot because I wanted to change. To feel like I could live for myself and not have to validate myself with others' thoughts. But even after everything that's happened, even after I made that vow to discover myself and to always keep going... I didn't want to change. I didn't want to put myself on the line for that.
[Both of Sora's hands clench around the objects they're holding.]
I've hurt too many people because I couldn't change. That's... not what I wanted. Not what I want. And I'm not going to sit around and sulk about it anymore. I refuse to keep hurting the people close to me. I refuse to keep hurting myself because I wasn't strong enough to make something of myself!
[The girl's expression sharpens, and she raises one arm.] I will change. Just watch me. WATCH ME...!
[And as she screams it out, she throws the thing in her hand off the side of the ship into the ocean below! It fades into the distance, eventually landing with a muted splash. Her Soul Perfume rests lightly in her other hand, glistening in the light.
[2 - Video]
[Well, this is a surprise. Sora almost never uses the video comm... She seems a bit tense when the feed starts, but she shakes her head and puts on a neutral expression as she starts to speak.]
I want to apologize. I've been in a bad way for what feels like a long time now. I've made a lot of you worry, even as I've continued to try and do what I've been doing. And I... that's not what I should be doing. I've been thinking... maybe I've been doing things the wrong way. I've been trying to prove myself by helping everyone. But... you've shown me that I don't have to prove my worth to be accepted. You've all been reaching out to me for so long now...
[Sora smiles radiantly.] Thank you, all of you, from the bottom of my heart. I know I take everyone on this ship for granted sometimes, but I don't know what I'd do without all of you. I know that I worried some of you, and I'm not totally back to normal yet, but... you help more than you know. I'll be all right.
[3 - Action]
[Sora can, for a little while today, be found in the room she shares with Momo; she's been elsewhere for several days now. But for now she's on her bed, lost in thought... probably about the video message she just posted. POTPOURRI is on her head, looking down at her.]
Have you been keeping all that bottled up all this time-dechu?
Mm... It's funny. I just told Hoshi two weeks ago that she needed to find someone to talk to about whatever problems she might have... and here I'm doing the same thing. Maybe I always have. I just... don't like being a burden to people.
[The yellow plushie files in front of his master.] Sora's not a burden! She's my partner-dechu!
[And the girl giggles in response.] Thanks, POTPOURRI. I'm glad you're with me.
[Sora's in quite a bit better of a mood than she has been lately... maybe now's a good time to talk to her, if you've got something that needs saying. Or a bone to pick, for that matter.]