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srwug_alpha_rp2014-01-04 09:39 am
lastfeather) wrote in srwug_alpha_rp2014-01-04 09:39 am
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Broken Contracts
[Ryou's slumped on a chair somewhere with a bottle of wine in one hand and a hell of a lot of regrets in the other. Meaning it was pressed against his face as he was surrounded by what was more or less a cloud of bitterness. A lot had gone down... and he was feeling the sting from all of it, from Texotic's death to Jack's senseless murder of fellow Ravens to Naiza (Now Zinaida) having become a Human PLUS. They still won, but it felt like dust.]
...
[He slowly swirls the contents of the bottle, an empty look in his eyes. 'A senseless death' he said. That was what was awaiting him, what he expected, what he knew.]
Its always because of someone who sets themselves up higher than everyone else...
[The bottle slips from his fingers and crashes to the ground. Ryou barely even notices. There was a dim light being cast on his face from a tablet on the table showing some Ark related info - things Jack had prepped to sent should he have died. It just made him more bitter really. A man making a terrible mistake and murdering people in hopes to single someone out to clean his mess. Nothing compared to what the Overbeing Father had done, but all the more frustrating because of his ties. He looks at his hand - a slight cut on it from the shattered wine bottle. He tilts it and watches the blood flow along it.]
Should I still bother being human at this point?
[He doesn't notice you at all.]
...
[He slowly swirls the contents of the bottle, an empty look in his eyes. 'A senseless death' he said. That was what was awaiting him, what he expected, what he knew.]
Its always because of someone who sets themselves up higher than everyone else...
[The bottle slips from his fingers and crashes to the ground. Ryou barely even notices. There was a dim light being cast on his face from a tablet on the table showing some Ark related info - things Jack had prepped to sent should he have died. It just made him more bitter really. A man making a terrible mistake and murdering people in hopes to single someone out to clean his mess. Nothing compared to what the Overbeing Father had done, but all the more frustrating because of his ties. He looks at his hand - a slight cut on it from the shattered wine bottle. He tilts it and watches the blood flow along it.]
Should I still bother being human at this point?
[He doesn't notice you at all.]
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[Ryou wiped the blood away.]
Its.... unpleasant to say the least...
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What is it?
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Machinery, chemical enhancements, invasive surgery beyond any acceptable medical institutions levels up here on the surface.
They take you... and turn you into a living weapon.
Most people don't survive from what I hear.
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[Ryou shut his eyes... his own reasons... why should he explain them? He shouldn't bother but... he's tired, he's drunk and miserable...]
I... I'm weak...
Its difficult... this... all of this. Being human is difficult. Back when we were locked underground it was all so easy... like I said... an existence of endless war and bloodshed with a pointless, ugly death waiting for us.
But the moment we arrived topside... the moment I came here I felt things I always thought were just impossible or useless or would never think I could feel. I'm not strong enough to deal with all of this, and I'm not strong enough of a pilot to keep up with Zinaida. If I was maybe I could have changed a lot of things...
I'm not strong enough to just be human... everything would be easier if I was just a weapon to be let loose on people.
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You mean you've grown a conscience. You can't in good conscience let them cut it out of you. That's just a roundabout suicide - or worse, because what they turn you in to goes on hurting people.
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[There was a weak chuckle at that... oh how he would have laughed at the idea of him getting one so long ago.]
Does it really make that much of a difference?
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The whole world is full of other people. Other people are most of what life is about. It'd be pretty strange for it not to matter.
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[Finally being in a wider world changed that.]
Caring... Its what helped her beat Teootl and what saved her in the first place.
[...And it made a difference like no one would have believed.]
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