srwug_alpha_rp | First Note

(Kamille feels another swing come and easily avoids it but then he sees the true attack. He is now in the middle of a sphere of energy arrows, all firing. All point blank.)

[Kamille couldn't help but laugh at this upset. It was a setup from the get go.]

[Respecting] Well played, Kurokawa. It seems you're very much deserving of the title ace...

[Thrown around in his cockpit a bit...]

H-hit for you.

Edited 2012-04-09 01:09 (UTC)

(Seiren smirks a little.)

Thank you Bidan. You are rather good yourself. You are one of the first people able to keep up with me.

No Bidan. It isn't just one hit.

(To prove her point she fires another arrow at the ground there is a pause before it explodes.)

I'd say it would be at least two hits. Or maybe I should have them detonate in such a way that they give me more than two hits?

[What? Oh you- motherfucker-!]

I-I'll concede two. [He's sounding rather weak now, though he's trying not to convey it.]

[As he gets into position for what was likely the last round, Kamille starts talking.] This next round will be tricky, but I'm just fine with that. Let's-! [Someone's approaching?]

[Out of nowhere, two lines stemming from Strike Harkens lash out, wrapping around one of the Desu Ellen and the Zeta Gundam's arms each. A few moments later, they're joined by the Desu Blanc, the angry face of Nanohana appearing on both of their screens]

What are you two doing?!

[...]

Does this count as your third hit, Kurokawa?

If you wish it to be Bidan.

As for your question Himesaki. Bidan and I had a...disagreement of sorts and he issued a challenge to me. To make sure no one got too hurt we brought in Sora as a judge.

[Sora buries her face in her hands, hidden in Itsuki's cockpit.]

Hana. Considering their disagreement is basically your and my fault - mine for bringing Seiren up in the first place before she got here, and yours for... well, everything's that's happened since Fairy Park - I'm letting it happen. I don't want there to be bad blood between them when we're trying to save people. Are you all right with that? [There's a stern tone here, like she's just waiting for Hana to say something.]

No, I'm not alright with that, Sora! I'm sorry, but this shouldn't of happened in the first place! And don't think you can just pass this off to the two of us - it's not our fault!

We have something important to do and doing something like this when all of us are needed to save Eri and the others is... ridiculous!

...forgive for speaking out of place, but for being my elders, you guys need to think much more clearly!

Hana. Do you remember that first day I got here? When I let you swing at me? We were never going to be able to get along if that hadn't happened. You'd be somewhere on the ship, and the little voice in the back of your head would be wondering if you're really supposed to be here. We can't work like that.

I'm not letting this happen because I want to. I'm letting this happen because I have to.

...

[At that Hana retracted the wires, freeing the two units. There's a slightly heavy sigh as Hana starts to calm down.]

I don't like it, either way, Sora. You guys are my friends... or at least... [she looks over at the Desu Ellen] ...I want you to be.

But... that's the thing - we're needed and silly fights like these are ridiculous, no matter why or how they're done...

...there's better ways to get through things than just punching each other because we're angry at each other.

[Suddenly finds himself outnumbered in terms of gender. Realizes that this has nothing to do with his situation.]

[Still, Hana does have a point. Kamille opens up a private channel to Kurokawa... At least, he thought it was, he didn't exactly have her IFF keyed in.] ... It was too simple. [huh.] You just showed up today, and made it look as if everything would be okay, that we would rescue our friends, and that would be the end of it. [he's visibly frowning.] You were so... cold about it, like our efforts had been meaningless up to that point. [shakes his head] I can't understand it... How can someone assume a position of authority without doing anything to prove themselves? Just assume that because they had rank in a previous institution, it would carry over to others not part of the institution? It pissed me off. [looking at his hands in contemplation.] It made me mad to no end, that someone like that would walk up in our lives, and assume control like it was okay and we'd be fine with it. I've had to live with that shit ever since the formation of the Titans! [looking at the Desu Ellen, and by proxy, Seiren.] I thought that I would be done with that military suppression ruining my life after I came to the Chalice, and yet you show up, and I see all those arrogant bastards that made my life hell in the colonies, the face of my mother and father as they ignore me and continue working for those people, the face of that man ridiculing the death of Ryo-!

Edited 2012-04-09 02:30 (UTC)

[slams his fist on against his pilot seat in frustration. He starts yelling in frustration.] Tell me! Tell me how you're going to save Cheng from his hypnosis! Tell me how you're going to stop Char from attacking the Federation from Axis! [he starts tearing up at this point, but he's still yelling.] Tell me why the hell you came here and didn't feel like you could do nothing to stop what happened! [Now he's really losing it] TELL ME HOW YOU CAN ACT SO COOL AND UNEMOTIONAL! TELL ME SO I CAN STOP FEELING SO FUCKING USELESS! TELL ME WHAT THE HELL I'M SUPPOSED TO FUCKING DO WITH MYSELF!!

[Kamille's panting heavily at this point, and he's still crying.] Tell me... [he's hiccuping terribly throughout.] Tell me why I can't do anything to save Haman, or Fate, or Cheng, or Julia, or any of my friends. Tell me why I can't fucking drag Char back home. Tell me why I... [he trails off. All that can be heard now is him crying.]

(Seiren looks Kamille for a second not really knowing what to say. Then Kamille sees something he isn't sure is real. A single tear running down Seiren's face.)

You don't want to act like me Bidan. I act like this to protect myself. Everyone I have ever gotten close to has either died, left me forever, or betrayed me...I can't even find peace in my dreams...I haven't had a good dream in ten years...You say you can't do anything but you didn't have to see your only friend you've ever had in your whole life die at your hands! You didn't have to live with the knowledge that you were the one that shot them! You want to know why I act unemotional and cool?! BECAUSE I HAVE TO! It is one of the only things that makes me able to function!

(Seiren turns to Hana and the tears start to actually flow.)

...You don't want to be like me...Being me is hell...

Seiren... Kamille...

[Hana's torn by this. She doesn't know who to comfort first - her friend or her superior.

Seiren would get the surprise of a lifetime as Hana approached her, her arms wrapping around her.]

Seiren. It's okay. It'll be okay - we'll make it through.

[Despite being snapped at for being a coward, Hana won't leave a friend in pain. You'll get your turn, Kamille - she's had it held in longer.]

(Seiren is left speechless for a second by Hana hugging her. Suddenly Seiren pushes Hana away but she can feel almost no strength in it. Seiren grabs her head as if in pain.)

NO IT WON'T!! It will NEVER be okay! I will always be alone!

(Seiren curls into the fettle position and starts mumbling.)

Always alone...Always alone...

[Hana blinks as Seiren pushes her away, watching her just curl up in a fetal position. Her heart just sinks seeing the poor girl so hurt.]

Seiren... no, you're not alone. Not anymore.

[Despite being pushed away, Hana approaches her, a smile on her face.]

You know why? Because you have all of us here. And soon, we'll have Eri and everyone else that got captured. I know it is to be alone, I know how it is to think that no one will be with you.

And I know that it's never true. You do have someone here with you. Seiren, everyone... there's no need to worry anymore.

[Despite the pain and suffering everyone's going through, Hana's just being an outpouring of love and support.]

...and Seiren? I do want to be like you. And I want to be like Sora and Eri. When we get Eri back, I want that to be a reality...

[Sora's flabbergasted. Of all the people to comfort a broken Seiren - something else she didn't think was possible - Hana wasn't even on the list. And yet, here she was.]

Seiren... you're not alone. [Sora approaches.] We're with you. No matter what happens, we'll be with you. We're teammates... we can be friends. I'd... like that. [She sounds a little awkward, but... surely there's a good reason for that.]

Hana, I'm not sure you want to be me, either... I've had a hard road to get here. But... thank you. It means a lot to hear you have that much faith in me. [A wide smile.]

[A weak chuckle is had from Kamille as he stumbles over from the Zeta Gundam.] "hehe... I guess I'd be crazy to think you wouldn't have your own skeletons in the closet." [He's still crying, but he's powering through as he puts one foot in front of the other, his face obscured as he keeps walking towards the PreDesus rather... clumsily?] "You were more right than I ever would have guessed, Sora: This ship IS an emotional deathtrap, but that doesn't mean we have to keep it that way." [stops in front of Seiren, offers his hand to her.] "The first step to recovery is to open up to others, so that you can support each other. The next step then, is to let other people inside to help the healing process." [Seiren's got the best angle of Kamille's face right now, and he's smiling at her, despite the cut above his forehead letting blood down his face, the crimson liquid mixing with his tears.]

(Seiren starts to cry harder.)

No! I can't do this I will just end up hurting you all!

(HUMMY looks sadly at Seiren and tries to comfort her.)

(Seiren gets up, pushes Kamille away, and suddenly grabs Hana by her collar, tears still flowing. Hana is now staring Seiren directly in the eyes.)

As for you! You can't ever be me and you know why?!

(Seiren's eyes slightly change color and her pupils turn into slits. Her teeth also sharpen and become fangs.)

You are still human, that is why!...Treasure that fact.

[Hana gasps as she's grabbed by her collar, watching Seiren change...]

Seiren... [Her hands reach up to lay on the other girl's, worry in her eyes.]

Does it really matter if what you are determines who you are? I'm not going to turn away and leave you here just because you can do something like that.

I don't treasure the fact that I'm a human - I treasure the fact that I'm alive and that's what counts.

[Kamille's knocked down, and though he tries to get up, he can't do it completely.] Nothing worth having in this world is without its price. [settles for staring directly at Seiren.] Becoming close to anyone here runs the risk of suffering heartache, Kurokawa, but I do it anyway. Because even if I suffer from standing by your side, you'll be in even more pain staying by yourself! That's why... [Oh boy, bloodloss is clocking in...] even when all is said and done... [Keep at it, man, you can do it!] I'll still welcome Cheng back with open arms... [vision is swimming-FOCUS] despite the fact he tried to shoot me down... [this is getting worse...] and when Char comes back from Axis... [wooh boy, nausea's setting in.] I'll punch him in the face... then hall him off to Sayla... and we'll laugh about it by the end of the day...! [And that's it for Kamille, he's out like a light.]

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