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[momentoftherose.livejournal.com]

[Action: Public, forwarddated to after they leave the atmosphere]

Doctor Zero's been seeing a lot of people lately with symptoms of space-sickness. Though her background as a surgeon-mechanic normally wouldn't cover this kindof thing, the low number of doctors on board has pressed her into it. For more mild cases, you get ginger tea (in a bulb, of course).


For those of you with really bad cases though, you get a treat: medical marijuana. It relieves the nausea and lack of appetite, but makes the disorientation a little worse...Not that you really much care with how relaxed you're feeling. It says on the bottle not to smoke it but to ingest a controlled dose as food or tea, but who knows if you actually listen to her?

[Private to Kensuke]

I hope you're feeling well on Earth. Taking a break from the Chalice was probably a smart decision. I'm sending a few things down to you via drop pod.

Comments

[reach-for-self.livejournal.com]

[And here Gregory was just walking by the infirmary to do whatever... only to spot a certain plant.]

I see desperate times call for desperate measures, doctor.

[Not that going into space is any big problem for him, of course.]

[momentoftherose.livejournal.com]

[She's currently packing it into precise little capsules and looks up at him, not understanding.] Hmm?

[reach-for-self.livejournal.com]

The marijuana. Back when I worked for TECZ if we needed to calm someone down, we'd sometimes use it. Cheaper than some sedatives, fairly easy to grow, and recognizable enough that nobody would worry about us slipping them something serious.

[momentoftherose.livejournal.com]

Oh, yes. I suppose i'm using it for the same thing. A lot of people are having bad reactions to being in space, both mentally and physically.

[reach-for-self.livejournal.com]

A shame. It's big, with enough fuel and a ship you can pretty much go anywhere, and the worst Second Impact's done up here is make supplies a bit sparse from time to time.

[momentoftherose.livejournal.com]

Yes, much better than how things are on Earth...[Her thoughs go to the famines of her childhood, the strict rationing, the constant knowledge that the armies of the Stalker Fang are all that stands between her and death or a fate worse on a predator city. For only a moment she seems to be dwelling. Then it passes.] Are you feeling alright?

[reach-for-self.livejournal.com]

Don't worry, doctor. I'm fine. Spent plenty of time up here myself, so I'm not in need of your help.

Still appreciate the concern though.

[momentoftherose.livejournal.com]

I expect that once we return to Earth i'll be treating an equal number of Spacenoids feeling fatigued from the gravity...

[reach-for-self.livejournal.com]

Perhaps... but that's only in the event people can't remember how to deal with it. Or we spend too long up here.

[momentoftherose.livejournal.com]

You aren't a doctor. You're still innocent of how...carefree some people can be. [Nothing malicious is meant, just some gentle teasing.]

[saikyocivrobo]

Are you sure distributing free drugs on a ship where most people are crazy in one way or another is a good idea?

[momentoftherose.livejournal.com]

I gave them strict instructions about dosage...[She's rather naive about this.]

[saikyocivrobo]

What guarantee do you have that they will listen to those instructions? Or even not forget them immediately?

someone come in all red eyed and be like "Doc I need a refill!"

[momentoftherose.livejournal.com]

...would they really disobey a doctor's orders just to intoxicate themselves? [She frowns a little. This wouldn't happen back on Rogue's Roost.]

[saikyocivrobo]

White Chalice is a bunch of vagabonds with allegiance to no country. Most people here are not very big on listening to authority.

[momentoftherose.livejournal.com]

But it would be risky and wasteful...[She sighs, buries her forehead in her palms.] What am I going to do?

[saikyocivrobo]

Threaten them, perhaps? Only an idiot would want to get on the bad side of their doctor.

[momentoftherose.livejournal.com]

I c-couldn't! Oh, i'm a terrible doctor...

[saikyocivrobo]

Then give everyone a reminder on how to properly use marijuana for medical purposes, whith one of those giant death cyborgs of yours standing at each of your sides. That should give weight to the announcement.

[momentoftherose.livejournal.com]

Well...[She peeks up from between her hands.] I guess it can't hurt. [And she heads for the hangar to record a message (http://srwug-alpha-rp.livejournal.com/294699.html). Follow?]

[tsunpirate]

Urgh... I never know being in space would feel like this. And I've been dreaming to go to space for such a long time...

which one should she get?

[momentoftherose.livejournal.com]

How bad is it? [A half full bulb of ginger tea floats nearby, indicating she didn't get off with no symptoms either]

Message recieved.

[my-time2-shine.livejournal.com]

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Kensuke didn't ever get messages, so when the mail icon started flashing he was a bit confused. He had the inbox that was always empty.
"Well that's never happened before."
He opened it up, not all to surprised to see it was from Doctor Zero, though secretly he had hoped it might have been from Cynthia or Flynn.
But no, of course it wouldn't be from them... they probably didn't even notice Kensuke was still on Earth.


Kensuke wandered outside, it was nice to feel the earth under his feet again. Doctor Zero was right, it was a good idea to come here.
He thought about that night over and over.

If Eva is my Legacy... what right do I have quit? No one else could handle the pressure, even the great and powerful Asuka had been crushed under the weight of the Eva.
As Kensuke walked, he held out his hands, to brush the tall grass as he strolled through it. The suns warmth hung gently on his shoulders, and even the sounds of bugs and birds sounded like a sweet melody. Kensuke had almost forgotten the fondness he had for the earth, the cold metal walls of the chalice where cool and all, but his heart has been missing the sanctuary that nature gave him. It was one of the few times he never felt alone.

When he had walked far enough, Kensuke laid down on the ground, in the shade of a great tree, beside little stream.
This... this is what we all fight to protect... the beauty of this planet, our home. But by protecting it, I hardly get to touch it anymore. More and more I feel detached from myself, and from the Earth. Like 'Kensuke' is a person outside from myself, and I am only his shadow. It's only when I'm in my Eva do I truly matter to the world. I am, apparently, completely and utterly, unlovable, by anyone except the Eva.
My mother.
Which is it?

The day drug on and Kensuke felt no batter when it came to an end, and his tried sneakers carried him back again. He felt no closer to the answers he sought within himself. He still didn't know if he could carry on this life as an Eva pilot, or if it would destroy him, just as it destroyed the others.

I have nothing to fight for. I though the joy of piloting would be enough. I thought protecting mankind would be enough. But it isn't... it's just.. not enough to fight alone...