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srwug_alpha_rp2011-12-21 11:49 pm
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Down in the dumps
Things just couldn't see to go right for Kensuke lately. Shinji and Asuka had left, or disappeared, or been relocated, he wasn't sure. And the fact that he hadn't seen battle in a while only made it worse. He had so easily fallen into his old habits of being, and staying alone. He didn't really know how to seek out others, and the longer he didn't talk to others, the harder it became to try.
He found himself sitting on the bridge before Eva Unit 04, staring at it as if he expected it to speak to him or something.
Maybe he did, maybe he didn't, either way this kid needs some cheering up.
" If Shinji and Asuka couldn't cut it, what make me so much better?" He sighed aloud, and longed to run and hide in the woods, with this tent, and his toy guns, and his imaginary army. They never turned their backs on him...
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"This one is my favorite." Kensuke picks up a bonbon covered in pink color chocolate, and then, nervously holds it out, offering to feed it to her. His eyes fixated on her soft, lovely lips, and creamy smooth skin.
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"So are you." Kensuke sat down next to her and smiles, scooting in closer to her. He put his hand in her hair, stroking the long locks that fell down her back.
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"Sorry for worrying you by the way, I had a lot on my mind."
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He turned a little, setting the chocolate aside.
"I've had alot on my mind too.... mostly, you."
His hand was shaking when she brought it to her face, and his face flushed red as he moved in to kiss her.
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Derailed effectively.
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DENIED! He closed his eyes, and leaned in, only to find that she had moved.
"What?" He looked at what she meant. "Oh that, it's only a toy, but yeah it's mine."
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"Uhhh I.. I guess if you want to see them, go ahead." He sighed and face palmed. "They won't hurt anyone, they just look like real guns, but they only shoot little plastic pellets."
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"Not as heavy as a real gun, but they serve their purpose I guess." He picked up another rifle and shouldered it. "Have you ever played Airsoft before?"
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"The country that I'm from doesn't really allow firearms, so this was as close to the real things as I could get. It's fun though, sometimes, getting to jump around and shoot at your friends, but not actually hurt them to much." If I ever had any friends to play with. He thought to himself of those lonely night on the hillsides above tokyo-3.
"It's probably seems stupid, I'm sure."
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"Yeah, I guess." Kensuke could feel himself walking down the familiar path of self pity, and tried to turn himself away from it. "Would you like to try it out?"
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"You don't have to take it to the range, you can shoot them anywhere." he flipped off the safety and fired a barrage of plastic pellets at his bed. They bounced and flew everywhere, but nothing broke, and even if she was hit by a ricochet it was no more painful than a pinch.
"See? Just toys. Just silly imitations of the real thing." Much like this 'relationship' was turning out to be.
"Dita." He shouldered his rifle, and tried to regain his composure. "I don't know what I have to do to make this any clearer, so I'm just going to say it. I like you. I mean I really like you. I know you're not used to being around boys like that, but I have to be straight forward with you. You're so brave, and strong, and so fierce in combat. And yet, you're so sweet and beautiful. I love you eyes, and your long hair. I love how different you are from other girls. But I want you to like me back, and if you won't... that's fine. I just... " He moved closer to her, but did not reach out for her. Instead he took off his glasses, and looked into the blurry blob that he was sure where her eyes. "I want to date you, Dita. Like for reals. If you don't like me, just say so, and I'll be happy just being your friend!" The last part came out as a half shout, as he stood there steadfast and shaking slightly.
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