D is sadness/In the wake of failure

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[D in this instance stands for both Death and Depression. Shoutaro is in the cafeteria, staring into a cup of coffee in contemplation. His mind flashes back to the death of Balgus, and how he killed that pilot in cold blood.]

Oya-san... Is this what you had to deal with everyday? What would you think of me, now that my hands are bloodied...

[He's currently not really aware of his surroundings at this time. Come bother him, he needs to get out of his funk.]