Kamille is still. Then, he starts to shiver visibly, and unable to contain it anymore, he starts laughing. He laughs a pained, tortured laughter, the sort of sound that only comes from people trying to stay sane in ludicrous situations. It appears you're about to be proven wrong again, Oenone.
He stands up to his full height, towering over the smaller doctor as his strangled howls come to a halt, only to give way to something else. "You don't believe I can mean that?" He speaks softly, as if starting to build up to something big. "How can I not, when Haman was willing to allow test-tube baby cyber newtypes to be created as tools of war!" Yet another thing he'd kept secret from most everyone. "Their growth was sped up just to make deadlines meet for the fight against the Titans' Mobile Dolls, and the adverse affects could mean that even if they survive, they'll never be able to live normal lives off of the battlefield." He's picking up momentum, and it doesn't look like he's going to be stopping. "How can I not commit treason, when Haman and Char prove themselves to be the exact same morons I've been trying to protect the spacenoids from!?"
From the look of it, he's felt this way for some time now. "It was never about 'Zeon'!" Kamille rounds on Oenone with the force of a ravenous beast, spitting the name out like it was something foul. "What I was doing was for the spacenoids, the people living under the rule of the Titans!" He rips the symbol of Zeon off of his jacket with great force, clutching the ruins of Haman's handwoven gift tightly in his hands. "But its because of the Titans that I learned that I was just supporting the same damn Zabi-based Fascism that wound up screwing us over in the One Year War to begin with!" He tosses the symbol aside like garbage. "Char Aznable, the man who wanted to bring a golden age to the spacenoids, was quoting GIHREN ZABI TO MY FACE!" Gihren Zabi, of course, being one of THE most horrible human beings to ever walk the face of the earth. "He talks about finding the promised land of spacenoids, then goes and proves to be the exact same damn thing he fought against in the first place!" He's letting a lot of frustration out here, sharing many things that he had been keeping secret from a lot of people.
If you'll look into his eyes, Oenone, you'll notice that he's tearing up. "I wanted so desperately to protect them from themselves, to save them from the monsters they had proclaimed themselves to be." His breath hitches a moment. "Haman believes she can never wear white, because it symbolizes a purity she can't have again, and Char, even if he hated the Zabis, he wanted to create a world where Mineva could grow up without the trappings of the Zabi name, and could live in peace." He forces his eyes shut, and when he opens them again, the anger comes back full force. "But now, Char has nothing but Hate in his heart, and wants the world to burn, and he's more than willing to use Zeon to do it." He's looking right at you, Oenone, and its like he's looking right into your soul. "I'm going to have to fight them, Dr. Zero. I'm going to have to fight them, and I'm likely going to have to kill them if they don't back down! I have to kill the closest thing I have in this world to older siblings, and deprive Mineva of her foster parents, just so that the Earth doesn't have to fear the name Zeon ever again!"
And there it is, Oenone. The stress from the last battle and the incident in the EVA cage had stretched Kamille incredibly thin, and now its all he can do not to hate himself for being put into his position. Your move.
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He stands up to his full height, towering over the smaller doctor as his strangled howls come to a halt, only to give way to something else. "You don't believe I can mean that?" He speaks softly, as if starting to build up to something big. "How can I not, when Haman was willing to allow test-tube baby cyber newtypes to be created as tools of war!" Yet another thing he'd kept secret from most everyone. "Their growth was sped up just to make deadlines meet for the fight against the Titans' Mobile Dolls, and the adverse affects could mean that even if they survive, they'll never be able to live normal lives off of the battlefield." He's picking up momentum, and it doesn't look like he's going to be stopping. "How can I not commit treason, when Haman and Char prove themselves to be the exact same morons I've been trying to protect the spacenoids from!?"
From the look of it, he's felt this way for some time now. "It was never about 'Zeon'!" Kamille rounds on Oenone with the force of a ravenous beast, spitting the name out like it was something foul. "What I was doing was for the spacenoids, the people living under the rule of the Titans!" He rips the symbol of Zeon off of his jacket with great force, clutching the ruins of Haman's handwoven gift tightly in his hands. "But its because of the Titans that I learned that I was just supporting the same damn Zabi-based Fascism that wound up screwing us over in the One Year War to begin with!" He tosses the symbol aside like garbage. "Char Aznable, the man who wanted to bring a golden age to the spacenoids, was quoting GIHREN ZABI TO MY FACE!" Gihren Zabi, of course, being one of THE most horrible human beings to ever walk the face of the earth. "He talks about finding the promised land of spacenoids, then goes and proves to be the exact same damn thing he fought against in the first place!" He's letting a lot of frustration out here, sharing many things that he had been keeping secret from a lot of people.
If you'll look into his eyes, Oenone, you'll notice that he's tearing up. "I wanted so desperately to protect them from themselves, to save them from the monsters they had proclaimed themselves to be." His breath hitches a moment. "Haman believes she can never wear white, because it symbolizes a purity she can't have again, and Char, even if he hated the Zabis, he wanted to create a world where Mineva could grow up without the trappings of the Zabi name, and could live in peace." He forces his eyes shut, and when he opens them again, the anger comes back full force. "But now, Char has nothing but Hate in his heart, and wants the world to burn, and he's more than willing to use Zeon to do it." He's looking right at you, Oenone, and its like he's looking right into your soul. "I'm going to have to fight them, Dr. Zero. I'm going to have to fight them, and I'm likely going to have to kill them if they don't back down! I have to kill the closest thing I have in this world to older siblings, and deprive Mineva of her foster parents, just so that the Earth doesn't have to fear the name Zeon ever again!"
And there it is, Oenone. The stress from the last battle and the incident in the EVA cage had stretched Kamille incredibly thin, and now its all he can do not to hate himself for being put into his position. Your move.