Five Cents - Before The Mio Incident

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It was a frivolous waste of time. But it was something that Tsukasa felt needed to be done. And in his wisdom, built a stand and placed it in the busiest intersection of the Chalice. And plopped himself down.




Care to talk with the doctor about your problems? Share maybe? All consultations confidential.

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[minorbeat]

It's just so hard to get her to listen to me at all. I've explained myself to her before. But she just doesn't listen. Especially when it comes to how I am with others...I don't like opening up. A lot has happened in my past and I guess...You could say I am afraid to. That is the reason I am having problems with my friend, as she is one of the only people I want to talk to. But that is something else. Anyway, I told her I don't want to open up but she is just so damn pushy and never leaves it alone...I think that is the big reason why we've started to clash so violently.

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And pushing has made you uncomfortable, as with the reactions. The kids of AmaHigh, one in particular has a saying for this called give and take, but at this point it seems to be all taking on your problem pilot's end.

You know why Riders rarely work in groups of more than 2? It's not for any rarity of belts or powers or anything of the sort, no. It's because we are inherently an untrusting bunch. Look at our Riders for example: Shinji only found his direction at the end of the Rider War. Ren fights to survive. Philip guards his secrets. Shoutarou, well, he's Hidari anyhow.

Now Gen... Gentarou... there lays the rub of this little topic. He wants to be friends with EVERYONE. Not just the good, but the bad too, or those who he claims to be redeemable. Reminds you of someone who has once proclaimed that making friends was once more important than becoming better than everyone else?

[minorbeat]

Give and take...That rings true with me and my friend. My past is really bad and like I said, I don't like to open up. Well I did to her and now that I think about...I think I've been taking too much. I just want her to smile, for her to be happy and trust in me to help her through whatever. But I've dumped so many of my problems on her without thinking about it...I'm a terrible friend.

(Seiren laughs hollowly at the mention of Gentarou.)

Yeah, that sounds like her. Just add on the fact that she gets angry if you don't open up to her almost immediately and will think you are an awful person if that continues and you have the perfect description of her.

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Communication is two way, and maybe its time for you to listen to your friends worries. Bear and share her burden at the same time. Given a chance, you'll find it more rewarding in the end. And opening up to a few others wouldn't hurt, BUT only provided you are READY for it.

[Tsukasa exhaled a little.] I have a pretty good idea of your problem pilot anyhow if it wasn't obvious. Kids today are interesting in that extremes are often taken to dignify their responses. She was raised sheltered, am I correct? Trying to live a normal life in the middle of this world's chaos?

My question is, how far can one push without causing severe overblown backlash? The answer? It's still give and take. Your pilot requires an enormous amount of take, and has become blinded to the fact that she is acting this way. While I can't divulge anything of our conversation, lets just say that sometimes a reminder of this instead of a heavy hand does more in the end.

[minorbeat]

(Seiren looks down in thought. After this, she is going to find Laura and apologize to her. Seiren sighs a little at the mention of Hana.)

Sheltered would be putting it lightly. After all, she is the granddaughter of a very influential person. I'm surprised she didn't have pilots kissing her ass all the time. That's part of the reason we don't get along. She thinks how I've gone through life is wrong and that I'm weak for it and even when I told her my past she looked down on me as if she knew how to handle suffering better than me even though she never felt anything like I have.

Again, I've pointed out to her several times that all this is bothering me but she doesn't listen. I think she only hears what she wants to hear sometimes. Even if I talked to her now I doubt anything would get solved because of it.

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All things considered, it's a blessing that she isn't expecting that. I would imagine being treated like a princess would have really grated quick. I wouldn't have stood for it mind you.

Nothing we do in life can be quantified into black and white, which is admittedly a good portion of her problems but stemming from that is that you need to teach her that shades of grey aren't scary either.

[Tsukasa rubbed his eyes a little, having done this all day.] Seiren, what do you say if I called everyone to a group therapy session? I'm sure everyone would want a turn to talk and now that we've identified the dynamics of the group and it's weaknesses, it would help to finally get them all out in the open. And I mean all of you, including Eri and Sora. As it stands, as their team leader, you need to decide on this.

[minorbeat]

(Seiren sighs once more.)

In all my years as an instructor, I've never had such a problem pilot. It's become so hard to even try and teach her now.

I think that might be the only option possible. I hate to have it go this far but I don't think it will get anywhere if it's just me and her.

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I'll be attending of course, and we'll get to the bottom of this. I know it seems daunting but we'll do this properly.

All right, I'll send an announcement when I'm ready for the group of you. It'll be easy to get Eri there at least. She's been coming to me for weeks now which gave me the idea finally to make my little stand.

[minorbeat]

(Seiren nods a little before standing up.)

Thank you. It has helped. Now if you excuse me, I need to talk to my friend.

(And off Seiren goes to find Laura. To apologize for not being the best friend that Laura deserved and to hopefully fix it.)