Five Cents - Before The Mio Incident

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It was a frivolous waste of time. But it was something that Tsukasa felt needed to be done. And in his wisdom, built a stand and placed it in the busiest intersection of the Chalice. And plopped himself down.




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And knowing this, people are seeing another side of yourself: the side that is all about Hana. Everything has to be about Hana.

But I'm getting ahead of myself. I'm not here to make you sad or unhappy or anything, Hana. I want to know in your own words how you feel about this.

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...ever since Seiren showed up, it's like... she's taken over. She's the ace, she's the cold and distant one and... and I wanted to be just as good... even better! But... but, things just kept falling apart. I overreacted when Haruka was acting upset, Kei attacked me for it, Seiren attacked me for it...

...th-then I went on the Walkabout and... and things went good. I knew what I wanted to do - I wanted to be a hero! You know that, Tsukasa - we talked! But... but, they still don't give me that respect! I...

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I see. [Tsukasa wished he had a notebook but he settled for taking a picture of Hana's expression.]

The thing is Hana, is that everything is about yourself now. I remember when you came on board, wide eyed, scared, but you had a will to slowly change. You didn't make it about yourself, you made it about OTHERS.

Where's that Hana now?

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[Hana opens her mouth to say something, but nothing comes out. She wants to proclaim that that Hana is still around, in front of him, but that's not true.]

...I let her get buried in everything...

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Too far, too fast. It's a terrible thing because you have lots of potential from what I've seen. I've watched your battles, that SMILE you had back in the day.

Now it feels hollow, like everything you want is an instant gratification. I think that in this time, in this world, you need to remember it's not just about yourself.

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But... I...

[She looks down, clamping her eyes shut. She knows Tsukasa's right. She's let every victory, every major thing build up her ego that, when something else came along, she felt threatened and she tried to reassert herself in the scheme of things.]

...I'm sorry... [Her apology is choked out, trying her best not to cry.]

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[Tsukasa reached over, and clapped his hand on her shoulder.] I'm not the person you should tell that to, mind you Hana. There's a lot of people who are waiting for those two words.

You know why I built this? It's because I've been talking with a few people, who believe I would understand everyone a little better than they're willing to admit. Your friend Eri called me the Fill-in-Castmate whatever that meant.

The point is, I can relate. I used to be all about myself. Now, it's for others. Why do you think I do such a menial job such as cooking? It's to see everyone smile.

Now, what do the two Hana's say? The Hana currently outside, and the Hana buried within?

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[Hana looked back up at Tsukasa, letting a few stray tears roll down her cheeks.]

...I... I want to change. For the better.

[she looked back down.]

...now I see what Eri meant when she wanted to know why I was so energetic back in Old Seattle...

...it wasn't me.

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Everyone's got faces they like to show. I've got ten of them, 12 if you count W and OOO.

[Spreading the cards, he pointed at the image of Faiz as if he was reading the cards.] Takumi Ogami, Kamen Rider Faiz in this world.

Once, he was a lowly student in Smart Brain High School. He had died at a early age, and evolved to an Orphanoch. Without any guidance, he mastered himself, by first mastering the inherent rage of the Orpanoch.

When the former Orpanoch King challenged him, he fought. But not alone.

Other Riders were in on his plight. [And he pushed Kiva and Kabuto towards Hana to look.]

Kiva, the Young Prince Wataru, and Tendou Souji, a man who lived on his grandmothers wisdom about unchanging a recipe so that their broth would permeate his Worm Sister's very being... they were his friends. And together they fought together, defending what was right, just, and never losing what made them them.

[And he tapped her chest above the collarbone.] What kind of Hana are you going to build?

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[Hana looks down, in thought]

...I still want to be the Hana that's a hero - one that can save all she can, but...

...I wanna be someone who people can rely on instead of looking at me in scorn. I want them to be my friends and I want to be theirs... but...

...if me being their friends means them hating me for it, then...

...then, I'd find the right way.

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[At this, Tsukasa smiled as he brought his hand back and folded his hands in front of himself.]

That really is the first step. Admitting you need to do this at times. To talk to someone, instead of yelling or forcing your way. Too much too fast, and you end up planting your face in the dirt. And every time you do, it makes it even harder to get up and admit you were wrong.

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I've done it so many times... do you think they'll forgive me?

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I do think so. You've got to count on courage at this point. But remember to be humble when you apologize.

[Tsukasa smiled and he added] I'll be here tomorrow. Come by for repeat sessions.